Manmay: Aadhya I am not your friend!
Aadhya (the little girl who stays near your tata's house): Why Manmay?
Manmay: I don't like you
Aadhya: Don't say that or God will punish you.
Manmay: God will not, he is my friend!
Hee hee, I don't know about God, but I love you a lot son!
Friday, January 22, 2010
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Love u son!
You are such a chatterbox! You are so damn sweet. You are such a pain!
All the way from waking you up, to dropping you to school, I love every bit of it!
And the minute you are in your class and I have to walk back to my vehicle, I feel so empty!
But then again your face pops up and all our conversations come rushing in, my heart lights up into a thousand fires.... thank you son for being there for me!
All the way from waking you up, to dropping you to school, I love every bit of it!
And the minute you are in your class and I have to walk back to my vehicle, I feel so empty!
But then again your face pops up and all our conversations come rushing in, my heart lights up into a thousand fires.... thank you son for being there for me!
Saturday, January 16, 2010
Voids
If its a void I want to fill, just anything would do.
But if the content matters, then its a different story alltogether.
Because then I am tying myself down. I am most probably looking for similar stuff that I was used to all this while or just the opposite.
Similar content can never be the same as what I wanted to replace. But the problem is that my mind will be expecting it to be the same, that is why I wanted similar stuff in the first place instead of trying something new.
If I choose quite the opposite, I am in for trouble again. I have no clue how it works. If I am the experimental kinds, it should be easier. But I will still try to create patterns, I will try to again map it to what I know. I might again bind it into a thousand chains of my expectations. It would be better then to just get rid of it and the void. But ofcourse if it matches what I want, then I have closed the void for atleast a certain period of time.
The problem with choosing the content is that I already have expectations from it. If those expectations can be met, then its really a cakewalk. Like if I was filling the void with rice grains of a particular type and its available in the market. So, can I have a not so rigid set of expectations of content. I can. I can choose the in-betweens or those out of range. I can say that I am fine with any one of the blacks, greys and browns. I can say that I like hot water as opposed to cold as long as it does not scald my tongue. But I must know when to retreat. The water will remain true to its nature, so if its hotter than I expected, then its going to hurt, for that is my nature.
But if the content matters, then its a different story alltogether.
Because then I am tying myself down. I am most probably looking for similar stuff that I was used to all this while or just the opposite.
Similar content can never be the same as what I wanted to replace. But the problem is that my mind will be expecting it to be the same, that is why I wanted similar stuff in the first place instead of trying something new.
If I choose quite the opposite, I am in for trouble again. I have no clue how it works. If I am the experimental kinds, it should be easier. But I will still try to create patterns, I will try to again map it to what I know. I might again bind it into a thousand chains of my expectations. It would be better then to just get rid of it and the void. But ofcourse if it matches what I want, then I have closed the void for atleast a certain period of time.
The problem with choosing the content is that I already have expectations from it. If those expectations can be met, then its really a cakewalk. Like if I was filling the void with rice grains of a particular type and its available in the market. So, can I have a not so rigid set of expectations of content. I can. I can choose the in-betweens or those out of range. I can say that I am fine with any one of the blacks, greys and browns. I can say that I like hot water as opposed to cold as long as it does not scald my tongue. But I must know when to retreat. The water will remain true to its nature, so if its hotter than I expected, then its going to hurt, for that is my nature.
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