The memory thing

I am seriously scared that some day I might wake up and not know what to do. I might just lie with my eyes open and wait for someone to come and tell me to get up and teach me how to brush my teeth... The whirring of the fan might excite me and I would be back to being a baby trapped in a decaying body or should I say mind.

I know I have walked for hours in a parking not knowing where I had parked. I find an easy way to do things and I have to find it again. Talking about brushing, there are days I forget to or days I brush atleast twice thinking I have forgotten to.

I don't want to be a living reference to Memento. Besides I have been unsuccessful getting even a single tattoo for pure pleasure..Fear again!

Shy away from gadgets I do

I have this fear, don't know why. Give me a gadget and I will draw a blank... I mean I wouldn't know if you are showing me a phone, a cam, an ipad, a laptop or just an empty casing.... until maybe u either look away or just show me what it does.. If I love it, which I do, once I get over my unknown grudges ....
The other night it was about phones and I was like what am I doing here... Funnily enough I have always had the funkiest genre of phones all my life, mostly thanks to the love of my life and few of those times, me...the first music phone/cam phone/ a BB and  I know the list will go on, mostly coz I keep losing them.. I have this amazing cam which I haven't fully discovered but have clicked some absolutely brilliant pics. I fell in love with the ipad when I saw it and yet did not use it at much...

Remember as a kid, the tape was stuck in the VCR and I was scared of dad beating me up if he saw that.. mostly because it wouldnt have slid in correctly... I had to open  it up and remove it...was so glad I could..Oh he used to make me clean those huge box speakers as a treat, walk into a train engine and ask the driver if he could show me around, plane's cockpit, ship's engine room, the SONAR machine... well everything on this earth. I mean I got that huge Columbia enclopedia for my 1st birthday...

Andthen I fell in love and married this mad cap who way back pull music in his car through some sort of  hard disk before pen drives and the like became common place,  pass files through phone wires, make amazing led lamps, paint his bikes and everybody else's with home made gadgets, has this absolutely irritating universal remote which mostly confuses me...

Now we have a son who has taken after him, I mean he beats people my age when it comes to gaming. When no one's looking he is the one helping me fix wires...

I guess with that weird fear I have, the easiest thing to do is surround myself with G-freaks! Or tomorrow just snap out of it.