Voids

If its a void I want to fill, just anything would do.

But if the content matters, then its a different story alltogether.
Because then I am tying myself down. I am most probably looking for similar stuff that I was used to all this while or just the opposite.

Similar content can never be the same as what I wanted to replace. But the problem is that my mind will be expecting it to be the same, that is why I wanted similar stuff in the first place instead of trying something new.

If I choose quite the opposite, I am in for trouble again. I have no clue how it works. If I am the experimental kinds, it should be easier. But I will still try to create patterns, I will try to again map it to what I know. I might again bind it into a thousand chains of my expectations. It would be better then to just get rid of it and the void. But ofcourse if it matches what I want, then I have closed the void for atleast a certain period of time.

The problem with choosing the content is that I already have expectations from it. If those expectations can be met, then its really a cakewalk. Like if I was filling the void with rice grains of a particular type and its available in the market. So, can I have a not so rigid set of expectations of content. I can. I can choose the in-betweens or those out of range. I can say that I am fine with any one of the blacks, greys and browns. I can say that I like hot water as opposed to cold as long as it does not scald my tongue. But I must know when to retreat. The water will remain true to its nature, so if its hotter than I expected, then its going to hurt, for that is my nature.